If you are looking for inspiration and proof then perhaps you could start with an independent witness to Christ our saviour. A non-christian Roman called Tacitus wrote in Annals of AD 116 concerning the existence of early Christians in Rome and as part of this text referred to the origins of Christianity, the death of Jesus at the hands of Pontius Pilate. There is more evidence of the existence of Jesus than any other person in ancient history including Romans such as Julius Caesar. Now we know that Christ existed we need to follow his teachings and that means using the bible throughout your life and attending church to learn more about Christ and to learn how to follow him and be born again